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Oh me oh my!  Tomorrow I have some excitement underway.  A city awaits me.  I am up for the challenge.  Up for the growth.   So bring it!!!! 

Life never ceases to enchant me and amaze me.  I wait in quiet content, knowing no matter what I have been so blessed to call you friend and I have come alive with this opportunity for challenge in a new place with new facinating people!  May it come to fruition.  We will wait and see.  I will have pictures of all of you in my head-running through my mind as I ponder this new environment with awe and wonder-maybe a bit of anxiety too.  I’ve really been sappy girl lately huh=)  Whatever-it’s all good=)  I send a hug over the wires-it’s a big bear hug squeeze that lifts you in the air=) Wow-super cheese-mucho queso! HA!

Gotta go my sweets.  It’s time to sing=)

Peace

That’s the story of, that’s the glory of love.

Today I took my mom to the doctors. I was tired of seeing her in such pain and the doctors not doing anything about it! I came with her in hopes that they would be reminded that this is not just another patient. This is someone’s mother. You know when my mom is not doing well when she has few words to share-us Wirks’ never have few words to share unless we are in pain either physically or emotionally. This is the truth-I am sure there are those of you reading this message and knodding in confirmation.

As long as there’s the 2 of us-we’ve got the world and all it’s charms.
But when the world is through with us-we’ve got eachother’s arms.

You’ve got to give a little-take a little.
and let your poor heart break a little.
That’s the story of…that’s the glory of love.

I sang this song in hopes you’d hear.

I like to keep it that way=)

I will be taking a trip soon-wouldn’t you like to know where?  Can’t tell you now.  But when it gets closer I may share.  Something has been fighting for me-this is a change-I am usually having to fight-and trust me I don’t mind steppin up to a good fight.  But this time it is calling me out-and I am finally answering after all the distractions have been laid bare.  I love you.  Always will.  But I am finally not going to let my fear of failure get the best of me.  I have done lots of incredibly cool things and met some absolutely amazing people along the way.  But baby I need to do what’s been there in the depths of me for a long time.  I haven’t slept the greatest the past few nights.  But it’s all worth it.  Working it all out in my head to be actualized in due time.  It is funny that I fear failure but not death.  I could go tomorrow and be just fine.  But I am not the only one who feels this way.  But I don’t fear suffering like I could.  I’ve been introduced to it a few times if you will and eventually wrestled it to the ground.

That’s all I have for you now.  Smile for me.  Keep kickin’, don’t just try to float above the surface.  If you feel all you have in you is just enough to float-I’ll be prayin’ you’ll be given the perseverance, vision, and strength to kick again=)  I thank God that He has not let me go.  I love each one of you and I know I say this often.  But I can’t wait to see what He has in store for you!

I know, I know, this sentimental girl needs to role=)

This week went swiftly by.  My friend Seher and I both agreed.  This week her hubby was out of town and I became her hubby substitute;-)  We had a blast!  I would come home after her and she would come to the window when I arrived, like she sensed I was there-or perhaps my loud music tipped her off;-)  (that will never change-my dad is the same way and he will be 60 in April=)  Anyway, it was really cute.  She would open the garage door for me and I’d pull off my boots and come on into her cozy new home.  Which by the way, they just moved in this past weekend and it’s brand spankin’ new!  I made dinner for us 2 of the nights-’cause I love to cook.  So I made a Thai dish(with the help of Trader Joes) and a Spanish dish.  Of course we both are quite vocal-so we had a lot to say each night.  It was quite refreshing to have a sounding board after work. 

The moral of the story, or what I came to the conclusion of is I miss having someone to come home to-my cat does not quite cut it=)  I am an extremely independent person.  But I realize that I would love a roommate again.  Never thought I would say that!  Of course Seher would be a great one-but I think Geoff would nix that idea;-)

Have a great one sweet one’s.  I have been thinking about each one of you alot lately.  I hope you are all doing well. 

Love,

Em

Baby I got my new boots on and I’ve been trompin’ and I’ve been stompin’..  I have been surrendering much more than ever-time to fully let go-release it baby!!!  You are not the one in control.  And if you were you know you would lose what I got for you right here in my hand so just stop little girl!  I have been thinking about you, your smile, your laugh, can’t wait till that sweet day…

I will be an aunt in a few months.  How wonderful is this-I cannot express.  My brother is going to be a dad.  An amazing one at that.  I know he knows how much I love him-but I am also so incredibly proud of him.  You all need to meet this man.  Yeah sure he has his downsides (like his lack of personal hygiene;-)but his upsides far out-weigh the down=)  I am going to be at his graduation next week in Virginia.  He will officially be an FBI agent and I cannot believe it.  I love my sister in law too-she is my sister and you need to meet her too!  She is one tough cookie with the biggest heart=)

OH and I am reminded of Billy Madison…

"back to school, back to school…."  yeah guess who’s doin’ that?!

So in a few words I will update you on the life of Emily.  If you need me to expound for you by all means, send me a message:-)

First off a weekend filled with shadows and noises outside a door and police in your hallway exclaiming "put your briches on boy!" (all beginning at 330am)

Second, mental preparation and readiness for a second interview-yeah baby-thats right;-)

And finally, the moment of great joy-a Gold Star 99 cent corn dog, Kyle, Jon, Eric, Shannon and Hero’s.

That is all.

Consider it pure joy-he says- whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Reminders for me- I don’t want to stay the same Emily as I was even the day before-hopefully I am growing up:-)

Having one of those moments where I just want to say thanks for being so cool people.  You are all a part of my life line-Chris, Tiffany, Courtney, Steph, Tommy, Shane, Larry, Mom, Dad, Sue, Matt, Meghan-peanut;-)  The list goes on-ooh that makes me wanna sing-"the beat goes on, the beat goes on…"

Anyhoo, there is a plan unfolding-before my eyes….I need not worry ’cause I’m not the one in control.

Last night my friend Larry and I and some new friends went rockin’ at an amazing concert!  The opening band was what we were there for but I have to say that the main attraction was quite good!

I don’t know about you but I enter my own little world at concerts-it’s one of my favorite things.  I close my eyes and all the sudden it is just me in this large room filled with this boisterous beautiful sound (external alliteration ooo).  Then I imagine myself on the stage dancing around like a mad woman-no shoes, hair down, and suddenly the stage is cleared.  It’s just me on the stage.  I walk down stage, curl my toes at the edge.  I close my eyes and belt out a song for only me, myself, and I to hear.  I LOVE IT!!!!!

Anyhoo,

Bye-

oh, Have a good day:-)

If I am speeding it is because I must go poop. 

I saw this bumper sticker on a van in the parking lot.  I was walking with My sweet friend Rachel and Drew-I lost it folks-tears were ready rolling.   If you saw me at work later today you would catch me laughing, seemingly for no aparent reason, but it was in remembrance of this bumper sticker. ( which I feel some strange kinship to the person I never met that owned that vehicle;-)

Ok

night

Love my job. I do. I really do.  But I still know that I cannot do this forever.  Today I almost lost composure in my session.  I could feel that feeling in the back of the throat-and then my eyes began to well up.  But I just talked myself down in my head to contain.  Life is full of great challenges, and great joys.  I realize however, how much I have been down these days my sweet friends.  Thanks for the cheering.  I am very much aware of how blessed I am to call you friend.  Anyhoo, just want to say I love all of you. 

Peace